Not that I “care” per say about what my brother does with his dog but this is just one example of how anal my brother can be and a good case of “throwing the baby out with the bath water”.

My brother’s neighbor has called the police twice in recent months about my brother’s dog barking during the day because this particular neighbor sleeps during the day. The first time this happened, my brother wasn’t too concerned but now that it has happened again his solution was/is to post his dog to give away on freecycle.

How do I say this delicately? Well, I don’t! STUPID FUCKER!!! The LAST thing I would do would be to try to give away my 12 year old dog. His 2nd alternative is to put the dog down. Again I say STUPID FUCKER! The dog is healthy and has been with the family since he was a pup. There ARE alternatives to either of the stupid methods my brother has come up with. One would be to BUILD A FENCE so that the noise of the dog would be less likely to disturb the neighbor. If nothing else, it would show the neighbor that he is at least making an effort and she may shut the fuck up about the dog barking. Another alternative would be to move the dog to another location in the yard–I know he has other places to put him but noooooooooooo………we should get rid of the dog. STUPID STUPID STUPID. The true solution would have been to have trained the dog in the first place NOT to bark all the damn time but seeing that he didn’t do that and the dog is 12 it’s probably a bit late for that now.

Maybe I just think my brothers solutions are asinine because I love animals a lot more than I do people and when I have a pet, it is for life–theirs or mine even if I dislike the animal–and I would never, ever get rid of one for something as petty as my neighbor calling 911 when the damn dog barks. I’d get rid of the fucking neighbor first but that’s just me.

If you have kept up reading my pages here, you will have noticed that although I bitch a lot about my husband’s family, I don’t bitch about mine. The reason for this is because my family knows about my site.

As of today, things are going to change. I have a LOT to bitch about when it comes to my family and it’s only fair that since I can bitch about my husband’s family, I can and should bitch about my own.

I have warned the one person in my family I actually care about (my brother) that he won’t want to read the page from here out because although I do love my brother, there are a lot of things where he is concerned that need bitching about!

Another no shock here………I am NOT a social person. I don’t DO social. I go to stores when I need to but I don’t DO visiting, parties, funerals, etc. Hell, if I have my way about it, I’ll skip my own fucking funeral. I don’t DO people.

Today, there was a first birthday party for my husband’s nephew. Needless to say, I didn’t want to go for several reasons including that I don’t DO people but also because his fucking mother would be there. I stressed very loudly to my dear clueless husband that I didn’t want to go but of course, I had to fucking go. It has gotten so bad for me and my desire to just hide away that I literally take a pill when I am forced to do the social thing so that I’m at least half zoned out.

I have been having such terrible bouts of anxiety that I went to the doctor last week to say GIVE ME DRUGS, I can’t take this–so I got drugs and is it ever a good thing.

Of course the MIL was there and as usual was MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME because that’s all the clueless bitch ever does. I just cannot tolerate her any more. She started having a moan because “somebody” didn’t call her back last week. I gave her a nasty look and said I was busy. Did you ever encounter a person who you just knew could be fixed by using a sledge hammer up against their head?! I know it would help her, I just know it would. If nothing else, it sure as fuck would help me feel better. I’m so tired of it.

I have been avoiding my mother in law. I just can’t do it anymore, I can’t talk to her. I can’t stand it. It’s the same thing every time……bitch bitch bitch brag brag brag me me me. That’s all her conversations entail, I can’t stand it! I played the messages off the answering machine this morning and there was a message from her. My husband asked if that was his mother and I said yes and I’m not calling her, I can’t take it. YOU call her and listen to it because I’m not going to.

To this point, he hasn’t called her either.

To be fair, I have been avoiding everything and everyone–especially my husband’s family. Both HTT and TT (if you don’t know what that means, read other posts on here, you’ll find it) as well as the MIL. They are all exactly the same with the exact same things to say about each other but then the next second, there they are all buddy buddy. I don’t play that game nor will I. If I don’t want anything to do with you then I don’t period.

I’m so sick of it.

My poor dog!!!

There is just no winning with the dog and she’s only a year old. I can’t imagine what “old age” is going to bring with her……if she makes it that far.

I know I mentioned before that the dog was very sick and in fact she was on medication for 2 months. Knock on wood–she’s been well for 2 weeks or should I say she HAD been well for 2 weeks……..last weekend I noticed her limping and found that she had 1 toe that was extremely swollen. After 3 days I decided to take her back to the vet to have it looked at. While at the vet, they gave her antibiotic AGAIN for her toe and also gave her rabies and distemper shots which she was past due for.

Once again, she has swelled up in the area where the shot was given and is lethargic. Last time she had a needle poke, she got a HUGE abscess in the area where she had the poke. There is no winning with this dog at all and the vets are stumped as to what the problem was in the first place or what is causing a needle poke to create an abscess. The best conclusion is that she is extremely prone to infection and must have some type of bacteria in her body that causes these problems.

Free puppies aren’t FREE! Thus far, we’ve spent over $1200 on this FREE PUPPY!

I don’t think I’ve mentioned that my dog (who drives me nuts) has been very sick for a month now. Well, she had one good week since June 30 actually.

She’s been running high fevers, not eating or drinking, etc. etc. Although the dog drives me bonkers, it was my decision to have her and when you take on the responsibility of a pet, you take what comes. The reality is that the dog needs to go to a specialist, the local vets are admittedly stumped on what could be causing this problem. The problem is that this particular problem is getting to be expensive and with the house purchase, insurance, and the bit of remodeling that absolutely must be done before we can live in the house it’s a horrible time for all of this to be happening.

I never realized until now what people who don’t have insurance have to go through with themselves or their children when they know they need medical care and they can’t afford it and have to go without.

Seeing that my pets are the only kind of children I am going to have, I want to give them the best care I can. I have never had a situation like this before where I am stuck in deciding on the best thing for my dog and being restricted by finances. I know that she needs to go to the specialist but I have a husband who is having a fit already about how much the dog has cost because of all her medical issues.

I’m beginning to think I should kick out the husband and keep the dog! Part of the problem is that he never wanted this dog to begin with and he did say when we got her as a puppy that he didn’t want her because she was going to be a problem. Well, he was right but she’s our problem now and we should do the absolute best we can for her. My concern at this point is that we are going to have spent a lot of money on substandard care and end up with her dying anyway. It’s sure not looking good for her health at this point and it could end up that after having spent $600 she may have cancer and we could lose her anyway. The frustration and helplessness I feel at not being able to take her to the specialist coupled with my nervousness over the too much too far house is about to drive me to disappear………..my luck they’d find me and drag me home like a lost puppy too!

After threatening and threatening to send this dog to live outside, today we sent the dog to live outside and do I feel guilty!

It probably won’t last long and I’ll have her back inside driving me crazy again because I feel so guilty about throwing her out and I know I’m going to miss her even if she is from hell.

I swear that my mother in law has to be the most selfish person in the world.

Just to elaborate on how selfish she is and how skewed her thinking is, I’ll share a little story. She had one of her trees fall onto her garage causing $1200 of damage. It certainly wasn’t the end of world, she is well insured not to mention rolling in money so it’s not a big deal. In the meantime, she found out her sister in law has cancer. This woman (my mother in law) is so self centered and so selfish that she actually has the gall to tell people how it’s been a bad start to the year FOR HER with the tree having fallen on her garage and the finding out that her sister law had cancer–that made it bad FOR HER.

Unfuckingbelieveable. I wish to hell the tree had fallen on her.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has ever stopped to take a hard look at their life and lament decisions they have made.

I made a real stinker today and it’s something I can’t fix or take back.  Of course, it’s not the first stinker I’ve made nor will it be the last.

Do you ever wonder why you made bad decisions be it buying the wrong shoes or choosing the wrong person to spend your life with?  From the little to the big, I often wonder if I chronically make bad decisions because I have bad judgment or if I do it because it’s inherent and learned from my parents.  I know my mom mad some bad decisions, especially the one when she decided who to spend her life with.  I know my sister has made some really bad decisions, as has my brother.  So I just wonder more and more, is *my* fault I make bad decisions or can I blame my parents?

Hmmmmmmmmm………

Oh fuck do I ever HATE holidays! My family is a disjointed bunch of idiots come holier than thous and my husband’s family is a bunch of self-righteous assholes. I absolutely despise having to do anything with either side of the house for a “function”. This is the one instance where I would relish in staying home alone with my critters and my computer and be just as happy about it.

From the sister in law on my side who is quite possibly the biggest bitch in the state of Wisconsin to my mother in law who is quite possibly the most self-centered person on the planet, I hate it all! I envy the people who look forward to the holidays with positive thoughts. I just look forward to them being over so I can be away from these fucking people!

This is the time of year where I want to scream over and over again STOP THE WORLD I WANT OFF!!