But I have been sick and I still am. I could bitch about being sick. You know, blah blah blah being sick sucks. There, I bitched about being sick.

I’M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!

I got to go fishing yesterday for the first time since August 14, 2005! Though I didn’t catch a single fish I did enjoy being out there and being in the sun. I can’t wait until I can get my boat out and spend countless hours fishing.

WOOHOO

Ok, I have to admit up front that I haven’t followed the Virginia Tech murders that closely but today I saw on the news that police are getting the killer’s phone records trying to see if he “may have communicated with others concerning his plans to carry out attacks on students and faculty at Virginia Tech”. I have to wonder what the point is. What’s done is done. What difference does it make?

Yes, it’s a horrible sad thing but something that just pisses me off to no end is all of the bull shit media coverage about the guy being mentally disturbed. Well no one cared until he murdered 30+ people and that’s just not right. Why bring it up now?! Maybe someone should have helped him and then this wouldn’t have happened! Why dissect him now? His parents have now apologized for what their son did. I’ll place bets right here and now that families of the dead will sue his family because they apologized. You just watch…………some asshole lawyer will claim that they are at fault because the apology indicates their guilt to some degree.

YOU STUPID SWERVING FUCKERS!

What the fuck is with you stupid swerving fuckers?! Why is it that so many drivers cannot make a turn without swerving in the opposite direction of their turn? I am sick to death of people who swerve left when they are turning right and right when turning left like they are driving a fucking semi when in fact they’re driving a fucking cracker box pregnant roller skate (AKA Toyota Echo, Chevy Aveo, etc.)! You should go back to driving school if you think that you need to swerve the opposite direction of the way you’re turning!

Here’s how it’s suppose to work for those of you who have forgotten:

step 1 turn on appropriate turning signal
step 2 if making a right turn stay right
step 3 if making a left turn stay left in YOUR OWN LANE
step 4 make turn coordinating with turning signal
step 5 do not swerve in the opposite direction you are turning you fucking idiots!

How hard is this?

As my husband said today, he didn’t know there were so many out of work semi drivers.

I have decided that being all bummed about the people where I live and eating myself up inside about them, I am just going to put on my I AM BETTER THAN YOU attitude and say FUCK THEM. They’re going to do whatever they do regardless of what I do, how well or poorly I do things, etc. so why should I let their actions hurt me. I SHOULDN’T and I’m not going to!

FUCKERS!

I have some really horrid things going on right now in regard to work and where I live that it has me all knotted up inside. I am angsastrated (angry, sad, frustrated) and I feel so helpless. I wish I could move.

I am so unhappy and I feel so out of sync. Why? Well, we decided to rearrange the living room which is where my computer is. On Saturday, we rearranged and I HATED it and knew it wasn’t going to work so Sunday we rearranged AGAIN and guess what?! I still HATE IT! Because I spend so much time sitting here in front of this brainless box and the other brainless box known as a television, everything is now totally backwards from where it was. My computer monitor is on the left, it was on the right. The TV is on the right, it was on the left. The stand that holds my monitor, the special rolling stand I bought, is on the left and it was on the right and on and on with the everything being backwards thing. I am *so* incredibly unhappy with this arrangement. My husband offered to re-rearrange it again back to the way it was to start out with but I said no, I’ll get use to it this way. I know I won’t. I hate it so bad but I’m not totally evil, I won’t make him move everything again, again. I’ll just live in loathing.

If you need to cry and scream all at once and you do, how does that come out? I’m not sure but I’m about to let go. See, I have a rule. I DO NOT CRY. I spent the first 13 years of my life crying and I refuse to cry, I just will not let it happen.

I have been on the verge of a cry for quite some time and I won’t let it out. The tears start and I hold them back. I have not grieved for the loss of my dog through tears because I just refuse to allow it. It’s getting harder and harder to hold back and I’m very afraid that soon the flood of emotion is going to come out and I am going to be a total disaster.

AN ABSOLUTE MUST READ! This man has said everything I was thinking only with much more eloquence than I ever could.

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http://www.nytimes.com/2007/04/13/opinion/13fierstein.html?_r=3&oref=slogin&oref=slogin&oref=slogin

http://funnyordie.com/v1/view_video.php?viewkey=3efbc24c7d2583be6925

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